Dear journal...

I found out tonight that my former stalker is moving 2 homes down from me. And I am totally freaking out! He is a convicted sex offender.

I have received a couple calls...been working and haven't been able to return them yet. DH told me tonight that the one call from someone was to inform me of a meeting set one evening in town. It is an awareness meeting to let neighbors know he is moving into the area.

I sat there in shock as he told me.....tears welling up. And an almost instant state of nausea. With million and one thoughts running through my head of "what if's"?

I sit here in tears, scared of what the future holds! Scared to live in fear. Scared to live here. Scared to be scared. So many thoughts. So many fears.

DH told me that the man is getting let out of jail and the county will have this meeting very soon. I have yet to talk to any of my friends or co-workers to see what he did to be in jail again? If it was another sex offense, another woman he stalked or worse yet....OMG! Or something else? I will find out for certain and soon!

I wondered the other day why I hadn't seen the vehicle around town in a while!!! I was so thankful for that! And had just figured that it was over! And that he took the visits from the deputies seriously and wasn't going to stalk me again.

OMG I am so scared! No one deserves this fear. No one deserves to have some freak do this type of thing to them!

Love,

me