Sunday, August 05, 2007

Unconditional love:


unconditional >adjective not subject to any conditions. -DERIVATIVES unconditionally >adverb.


love >noun 1 an intense feeling of deep affection. 2 a deep romantic or sexual attachment to someone. 3 a great interest and pleasure in something. 4 a person or thing that one loves. 5 (in tennis, squash, etc.) a score of zero. [apparently from the phrase play for love (i.e. the love of the game, not for money).] >verb 1 feel love for. 2 like very much. 3 [loving] showing love or great care. -PHRASES love me, love my dog proverb if you love someone, you must accept everything about them, even their faults or weaknesses. make love 1 have sexual intercourse. 2 (make love to) dated pay amorous attention to. there's no love lost between there is mutual dislike between. -DERIVATIVES loveless >adjective lovingly >adverb. -ORIGIN Old English, related to leave2.




Very strong, powerful words that I value very highly in a friend, family and partner. This is something that must be valued from both sides......sad to say that it is not valued by my H.

I do have many friends over the years that do value this and do love me as I do love them unconditionally. It is these very friends that I can rely on to get me through some tough times. This morning was one of those times.

I have an amazing friend, Jaq. Jaq has been there for me since we were in the 4th grade. Through marriages on the playgrounds, good and bad friend(s) that has done the unthinkable to us or shall I say our SO's, births, marriages, deaths, the many happy and sad times in your life as you grow up, through our teen years, party years, rebellious times, seen the good and bad relationships, omg so much. We have shared so much together over the years. I would have a hole in my heart if she were to ever leave my life.


We may not talk every day. But we are still close at heart. She is there for me in the time of need and I for her. This morning I needed her. I knew she would be one who would understand what was going on as much as I could make sense of it that is. confusing I know...I am confused too.

This morning as Jaq hugged my trembling body, wiping the uncontrolable tears that were forming niagra falls as they fell off of my face she was THERE for me once again. There when I needed someone there who would JUST listen to me without PO. She was there for me unconditionally. She told me repeatedly that it was OK now, she loves me and that she is ALWAYS there for me when ever I need her...9am, midnight...4am what ever the day or the time that she is a loyal friend and that she doesn't need to understand anything other than the fact that I am hurting. And when I hurt she hurts. When I cry she cries...and this morning her SO also cried with me, with us, for me. He is a doll. He too is very supportive of me and my children. She is my safe harbor if you will. I am giong to move on...can't share the rest right now.

Unconditional love is something I have never had with my H. It kills. Has always hurt. But that is to be expected when you love someone who doesn't love you.

Why is it so hard for someone to just listen to your words without hearing their HO? Honestly I find myself doing the same thing sometimes..but it is hard sometimes. BUT sometimes I NEED to just here "it's OK, I am here for you right now"...so much more on this subject..but no time. Imagine that!

crap gotta go!!!!!!












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