What a morning....do you ever wake up in the morning and have an instant anxiety attack. Seriously from the second you open your eyes you are in a state of shock. Thinking OMG what time is it. OMG the power went out. Ahhh...the alarms didn't go off...Jon Paul is late for work.

That was my wake up this morning. See the battery operated clock that sits on my lingerie chest...ya ugh, huh that says 7:26am. He was to be at his job this morning at 7:30...which is 20 minutes away from home. Ahhhhh!!!! Thank goodness his boss is my cousin! BUT my H and I have told the cousin that even though he is relation he must still treat our son as any and every other employee. So that he learns responsibilities, natural consequences, etc...good work ethics, KWIM.

So DS called his "boss" and informed him he would be about 15 minutes late. We both were running around the house scrambling to find shoes,etc. I could not find the sandals I wanted, my make up bag...omg me go in a store without make up on...had to get gas and I capp or I wouldn't make it home,lol. Finallywe're out the door and I drive like a mad woman. At one time I hit 76mph....oh i hate to speed!!!! But we made it there and he was 14 minutes late.

I got my capp and some gas. Got home...checked in at 2ps...then the tuesday bloggers...and now I am here. Whew what a morning! LOL. Now that I am sipping my capp and surfing life is good. LOL. Not tense.

I have numerous hearings this late afternoon. One particular case I am not thrilled with! I swear some people I just will never understand!!!!! I have worked with this client for 2yrs and despite all my countless hours, work and efforts not to mention the social workers, counselors and in home counselors...ALL of our efforts have FAILED. Ugh...I hate it when I feel like I have failed a kid!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Makes me hate my job. Makes it feel so worthless, kwim. Honestly I just can't understand this family. They have been give WAY TOOOOOO many chances and have not progressed with anything in 2yrs of services. Ugh. So with my report to the Judge it was 2 pages long and in the end I did not even make a recommendation.....the first EVER report without my recommendations at the bottom. But I explained why. Now it is in his hands. Because I will tell you that the social worker and I are completely baffled at the perplexity of this case. So I an tensed about this one.....we'll see how it goes.

Hopefully I will be done with court cases by 4:30 and back home by 5pm for an evening at home. I love tuesdays...usually home in the mornings and evenings. Well sort of. Last week no. The week before no. And today I should be in the office preparing letters to clients but I just don't feel like it. I am so burnt with my jobs right now. I blame it on my stressed life, working both jobs and NO break from the one like I am supposed to have (summers off) I am tired. And it will not slow down till October 1st. I think tomorrow will be my 8th day off since end of April-Beginning of May. But you know how it is you usually work on your days off any how or at least I do.

Can't believe that school is almost here. I have not begun to think of school shopping...maybe will have to just shop local this year?! Love the clothes at Gliks so maybe will just have to get the boys stuff from there only...they have the shoes they love in there too. So looking like it will be my alternative to going out of town. I got a flyer in the mail last week and their fall fashions look sweet. I was in there a week ago and they have this HOT new hoody/zip up that is two tone tan with the darker tan being a skull/cross bones and I LOVEEEEEE it! Think I may go back and get it?!

I was thinking that I may design some messenger style bags for work this year. Love them for my files and laptop...hate the big ars laptop briefcase things...enormous. I have my heart set on a pink/black/white one with skull/crossbones and the eyes being flowers...how freakin cool would that be!! So rad! Obviosly I won't use that one for a court day but when visiting the schools I could. Ooooo BUT there was this young HS girl at work yesterday that had a GAP tan one that was SO HOT! If we go out of town for school shopping I MUST go to gap and buy one...ooo maybe I can go online too! Eeeks getting excited...hope I can find one!

Speaking of schools I get to start traveling to Bemidji again this year, argh! I got a new file 2wks ago. Not excited! Well maybe. I did miss out on lunches with my dear friend at the end of the school year last year when my clients were either in treatment or juv'y. So that will be a plus...oh and on the days she can't eat with me...I give myself my lunch hour to go to Targe Boutiqe..love it!

I have a few hours this morning that I hope to sit down and find some mojo to create a LO or two?!?!! Not feeling the juices just yet though :( Not feeling to much like an artist lately and I so very much miss that! 3mo ago I would wake up in the middle of the night with some amazing ideas and have my journal next to me to draw sketches,etc of my thoughts or while driving down the road...or sitting at my desk have amazing ideas. Now I am lucky to just sit at my scrap desks and look at my pics, pencils, etc I hate that.

Quote for the day: "if you obey all the rules you will miss out on all the fun" Katherine Hepburn

My thought for the day: If you consume your life with your work it really isn't YOUR life...it is your work...so take your life back and make the most of it. I doubt that if you were to die tomorrow you wish you had worked harder! Some peeps I know can take this to heart ;)

OK thats it for now....off to start laundry, dishes then pick up a few things. Shower & get ready. Then hopefully find an hour or so to sit down and find some creative mojo. Anyone willing to share any;0

thanks for stopping by and I hope you have a spectacular day!!!!!!!!!