OMG what a hectic morning so far. I went to bed after my entry. But of course a gazillion and one things were on my mind and I couldn't sleep. So it was prolly 2hrs later when I finally fell asleep. Then up at 4:35 and couldn't go back to sleep. Finally got out of bed at 5am and started cleaning the house.

I took TJ to work. ...Left at 7:15 and it was already 77degrees outside. Can you believe it. So muggy, etc. Yuck!

I just finished all of the house chores. Jess Man mowed the lawn for 2.5hrs. Now I must get the sprinkler going before the sun comes out. I have about 3 loads of laundry to do...seems as though the 3 boys of the house waited until after I thought I was done cleaning to bring me their laundry, argh. Then DH or DA as I call him...wants me to iron pants and a shirt for him, ROFLOL!!!!!!!!!! WTF!!!! I don't think so. If he had asked or even helped out with things today.. I may have considered it. But his mouth, attitude, rudeness, and just plain old disrespect towards me and our children has me so hurt. And there is only one thing I want! A vacation and I won't go to dallas, kwim.

The house looks amazing...and smells even better. I love a clean house!!! Too bad for me that I live under the same roof with a slob who feels it is my duty to him to clean up after him. Didn't you know I married a God, lol. Ya.

Sorry for all the attitude lately but I am so fed up with crap. I have to let some of it out some where...OMG I am so filled with it my eyes turned brown,LOL!

I am still not finished with the other entry that is to go with the music over there---------> love me or hate me. Sorry! Been busy YK.


Oooooo I checked out a few blogs early this am and Christy T was pimping her sista/sil. She designed some awesome felt embellies!! I went to her store site and bought some. I can't wait for them to show up. Thanks Christy!!! You rock! Not sure what the deal with some of the blogs though....they won't let me comment even though I am logged in. They just keep refreshing the pages. You know like I keep hitting "f5" but I am not. Not all sites just a few. Who knows!

OMG I am so stoked about seeing the girls!!! My little MJ is going to come running full force for some sug, sug. (sugar) I love her hugs and kisses. She is so beautiful. The perfect little girl. Heather knows I wish she were my little girl...the little girl I have always dreamed of having but can never have. Well unless I met, fell in love with, and married another person and adopted. Because God had other intentions for me and my own body. But that is ok because at least I am alive and living a life with my boys! Much more than I can say for how close to death I once was. Thank God for GOOD DR's!

Man does that bring back some terrible memories!! But I know I learned a lot while I was in hell (7 surgeries in 9mo along with treatment and many dr visits) I will say that while my many, many visits to Roger Marris Cancer Center I saw many people come and go. Young and old. The one that stands out the most was a little 4yr old girl. It brings tears to my eyes just thinking about her. She had the most amazing spirit. She was always happy. Always had a smile on her face. And trust me these peeps go through MANY days feeling like crap!!!! She was the most beautiful bald headed girl in the world! She had these amazing blue eyes that just had so much love in them.

Till this day I never found out if she went into remission or not? If she is alive or dead? But one thing I do know is that when she was there she lifted the heavy spirits of everyone there. I would sit in my lounge chair worrying about whether I was going to feel well enough to drive my self home (1.5hrs home) after. I would arrive at about 10 am and wouldn't leave until about 6 or 7pm. So it was hard for someone to take a full day off from work to drive me. And ended up driving my self most of the time. As I lay there stressing out...I would hear her purky little voice coming in I would purk up a bit. she always cheered me up. And all it took was her smiling face and simple little HI in her cute little voice. It was amazing that she was the youngest one there and the happiest one too. Most everyone else had a TERRIBLE attitude. And I am a firm believer that bad attitude doesn't cure you...only makes it worse.

YOUR THOUGHTS BECOME YOUR LIFE...
1) Ask
2) Believe
3) Receive

Believe you will get well and be healthy and it will happen....take my DH for instance. When he got Guillain-Barre Syndrome...they said he can't walk, talk, feed himself and every other normal thing for who knows how long. He wouldn't believe it. He was determined he would fully recover in weeks not months/years like dr's said. He did. 3 wks later he left the rehab floor and headed home...lots of help from me. But did a 95% turn around that amazed the dr's.

Anyhow after all the babbling I need to get my badonka donk out of here! Heather and the girls already called 2x...are you coming yet they said! LOL! Later~